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Date: 2023-09-19 10:26 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] wardenofice
[Ah. Now that she is in front of him, she realizes that not only is he clearly dressed to sleep but, in her haste, so is she. Even if it is still modest, perhaps she could have been less impulsive. It had taken her at least this long to talk herself into asking him about everything.]

Oh. [A look of surprise appears briefly on her face. There were other feelings attached to that, of course. As there seemed to be ever since they had found one another again. There had been so much going on that little time was spent dwelling on such things. Now was no exception. The conversation she wants to have is important.]

Did I wake you?

[For a moment she falters, wondering if she should ask him tomorrow.]

I just... I was hoping we could talk? If I'm not disturbing you.
Edited Date: 2023-09-19 10:32 pm (UTC)

Date: 2023-09-20 12:25 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] wardenofice
[While the fabric is still quite thin, he'll probably be relieved that it doesn't cling to Jill's body at all, nor does it hang higher than just below her knees. There are still curves that might distract, however subtle they are, and her hair is even untied - braid and all - but otherwise he is safe from temptation.

A feeling of relief washes over her. He isn't bothered. He isn't turning her away. Even so, Jill still feels as if she has to summon a little more fortitude. She wonders how much more he and Joshua know that went unsaid.She steps into his room, looking around.
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Thank you. Maybe I should have waited until the morning, but I felt like I couldn't anymore. It's just... I was hoping you could tell me what happened? When you rescued me. There is more to it than you or Joshua have said and I didn't want to pry about it, because I wanted you both to settle in.

[It was difficult, because she felt that if she didn't say everything she wanted to say, then she might not be able to ask him at all. Looking for the nearest place to sit - which happens to be the end of his bed, she looks up at him.]

I hope that it's alright that I ask now? I want to know.

Date: 2023-09-20 04:33 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] wardenofice
[It isn’t hard to catch him staring. It makes her feel self conscious and something else she couldn’t put into words. It didn’t bother her that he was looking. She watches him as he deliberates before closing the door, listening to him and trying not to be completely aware of how close they are when they sit on the bed together.

She could feel his frustration as he described everything up to their escape. Her hand immediately moves to cover his, the worry crystal clear on her face. She never wanted to see Clive hurt like that again.
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As long as you weren’t hurt again, that’s what matters. I was terrified when I saw Joshua holding you up and dragging you away.

[She takes his hand, hoping he might release the tension and frustration.]

We didn’t…?

[What did they do while waiting? It felt like she came away with more questions than answers.]

I’m sorry… for not remembering all of this.
Edited Date: 2023-09-20 04:41 am (UTC)

Date: 2023-09-20 09:32 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] wardenofice
[Her own breath catches in her throat as they both realize and remember that first night they had reunited. Had Gav not interrupted, they likely would have kissed. No one was here to interrupt them now.

When she speaks, her voice is low, as if afraid of ruining the moment. She felt the pull to be closer and do something about that distance between them.
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You will beat him. I know you will.

[Jill laces their fingers together, not missing a beat. Her mouth opens and closes when he mentions Shiva, tells her that she has given her to him. She wasn’t the happiest about it but doesn’t doubt him.]

I see. I’m sure I had my reasons.

[She leans in somewhat, looking up at him. There was no expectation of anything, but she could not deny the pull anymore.]

If it will help you fight then I’m glad. Did something else happen to change my mind and give her to you?

Edited Date: 2023-09-20 09:50 am (UTC)

Date: 2023-09-20 11:08 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] wardenofice
[Jill feels relief that is the conclusion they came to. She wasn’t going to let him shoulder it alone.]

Good. The last thing I want is to watch you charge in alone. I don’t think I could have given her up only to watch you do that. I do still want to help you.

[She closes her eyes for a moment when he touches her. It made her heart race only slightly. She looks up at him again, trying to fight the urge to just lean into him and close that space between them.]

Thank you for saving me, Clive.

[He had a few times now. They saved each other. She didn’t want him to do anything alone. It would have been too much to bear. Unable to keep the distance between then anymore, she reaches for him in turn, resting her palm against his cheek.]
Edited Date: 2023-09-20 11:31 am (UTC)

Date: 2023-09-20 12:31 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] wardenofice
[He isn’t the only one affected. When he kisses her, Jill immediately responds by tangling her free hand in his hair. She is still surprised by it, a soft gasp escaping when his mouth meets hers. How many times had she imagined this in the last five years? There had always been more important things to dwell on so it was pushed aside.

She leans into him, her other hand and still holding fast to his. Distantly, she knows this might be inappropriate, being in his room alone and in her night clothes. She can’t seem to find it in herself to care.

It feels as if the air has been sucked out of the room. A soft needy sound escapes between kisses but she isn’t sure what exactly she needs beyond him kissing her. Kissing him is new and wonderful and she doesn’t want it to end.
]
Edited (I swear to god I just write jibberish) Date: 2023-09-20 02:19 pm (UTC)

Date: 2023-09-20 08:11 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] wardenofice
[Already, she feels swept up in the moment, his hand on her back doing things to her that made her mind race and her hand hold fast to the front of his shirt. She still hasn’t let go of his hand.

His mouth is hot and she doesn’t care about anything else. Worries about going slow are starting to be flung out of the window. She wants him to keep touching her, even if distantly she knows they should stop.

He makes the choice for them, though he keeps his hand on her back and their foreheads touching. Absently, her fingers trail through the strands of his hair. She has to remember how to breathe as she listens to him and then absorbs this new information.
]

Oh.

[His words sink in, relief washing over her. Yes, talking about Shiva was important but she knew him better than that. He had been more worried about telling her this. It was likely not even Joshua knew. He had been carrying it alone.]

Were you worried about how I would feel about it?

[She pulls back slightly to look at his face.]

I’m sorry that you had to be the only one to remember. I wish I did, because… I know I would still make the same choice.

[It was embarrassing to admit that yes she would still sleep with him, but it felt more important - more right - if she had remembered from the start. Maybe it didn’t matter at all how or when they got there, but she still felt guilty for not knowing.]

Date: 2023-09-21 04:04 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] wardenofice
Fine. [She shakes her head, smiling a bit.]

Then I take back my apology. You shouldn't apologize either for not telling me sooner. I was trying to give you and Joshua both space.

[She lets go of his shirt, which she realizes that she had been holding onto at some point during their kiss. She is also aware of his hand on her back. When his lips touch her knuckles, it feels as if heat has passed all through out her body. He always took such care with her - whether it was as small as helping her jump down from high places or as big as helping her face her demons.]

Clive. I'm not completely surprised by what you're telling me, because I know myself well enough and I know you. I promise, I am not forcing myself. I don't know if that is what you mean, but I want you to hear it. I wanted to kiss you.

[For thirteen years, she had been forced to be a weapon and had almost given up on living entirely. Clive had saved her from that fate. They had been side by side for five years now. That wasn't for nothing. It meant something to her. He had given her back freedom and choices and more than that, they were together again after all of that pain and suffering that they both had felt for so long. Why couldn't they both take a small bit of happiness for themselves?]

Date: 2023-09-23 04:34 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] wardenofice
[It's still so much to take in - the fact that he is kissing her at all, the fact that they apparently spent a night together - but it didn't matter. Any worries about the fact that she didn't remember melt further away each time they kiss. When his mouth meets hers again, her hands move automatically to frame his face, thumb tracing the old scar on his cheek. It was embarrassing how much she wanted to just spend the night kissing him.]

Every day? I think I could agree to that. I hope it's at least more than once a day?

[She's definitely teasing, but mostly because his earnest request made her happy. Fondly, she brushes her fingers through his bangs before placing a soft and lingering kiss to his lips.]

Date: 2023-09-23 03:43 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] wardenofice
Good, because I would very much like to do that.

[While the words do come easy, it is only with him and right now that she is mustering up the courage to say them. He may not see it, but there are some nerves involved. She knows that perhaps she should leave for the night but now that she is here, now that he has told her about Shiva and their spending the night together, it feels impossible to tear herself away from him. She wants to keep touching him and kissing him because that would make it all real.

While she has given him some distance to speak, it's far too much for her liking, so she leans in once more to kiss him. She has no experience to draw on, but it's not without showing him how much she does desire him. even if she doesn't know what that moment with him felt like, she does know she wants it eventually.

There was no rush, no fear of impending death here. It felt as if time stood still and maybe they could take their time. She just wants him to know, even if it's with a heated kiss and her fingers tracing his jaw, that she does want him. In the back of her mind, she knows she should probably leave, if only so they both could sleep. Would she even be able to sleep after this?
]

Date: 2023-09-24 07:24 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] wardenofice
I do want to stay.

[His hands on her waist are distracting enough that she wonders if that is a wise decision, but she also doesn’t want to go back to her room either.]

I hated giving you space and I hated feeling like it would only be a bother to you the longer I waited to ask you about everything.

[It is that desire to just be with him that makes her say yes in the first place. It could be more responsible to just say no. She can’t bring herself to do that at present.]

Date: 2023-09-24 01:55 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] wardenofice
[For such a simple kiss, it made her want to melt into him. The small smile, the way he sighed, the way he touched her - all of it made her feel like it could be so easy to want and to ask him for more. He was Clive. He always put her feelings first. She was grateful for the fact of being allowed to make choices or voice her feelings at all.

She watches him move about, turning off the light and then pulling back the bedding for her to get in first and when she does, she finally whispers back to him, almost afraid of breaking the moment as she settles into bed and looks up at him.
]

It’s the same for me. I shouldn’t have thought to avoid you before.

[She hopes that he won’t reject her when he decides to join her as she fully plans to move into his arms.]

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