[How is it that his younger brother can pin him so easily in place, but Clive has no rebuttal prepared? How is he supposed to respond when he wants very much to not be perceived, even by someone he trusts with his entire life?
Clive leans forward and grips the edge of the sofa cushion in both hands, glancing down at his booted feet.]
Joshua...
[Worse than anything, though, is that Clive doesn't have a good answer. There is no reasonable excuse. Truth be told, he doesn't even know why he hasn't said anything. He's afraid? Shy? The timing has never felt right?
That night on the beach - a story he will not share with Joshua, no matter how much his brother may needle - had been as close as anything to him confessing his feelings, and afterward it just hasn't felt necessary to say anything else. If Jill hadn't been comfortable with him, then that night would have been the time for her to pull away. She could have given Shiva to him and then they would have gone back to waiting for their clothes to dry instead of sharing their desires so intimately.]
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Date: 2025-01-02 01:17 am (UTC)Clive leans forward and grips the edge of the sofa cushion in both hands, glancing down at his booted feet.]
Joshua...
[Worse than anything, though, is that Clive doesn't have a good answer. There is no reasonable excuse. Truth be told, he doesn't even know why he hasn't said anything. He's afraid? Shy? The timing has never felt right?
That night on the beach - a story he will not share with Joshua, no matter how much his brother may needle - had been as close as anything to him confessing his feelings, and afterward it just hasn't felt necessary to say anything else. If Jill hadn't been comfortable with him, then that night would have been the time for her to pull away. She could have given Shiva to him and then they would have gone back to waiting for their clothes to dry instead of sharing their desires so intimately.]